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Where the hell do I go from here?
5/17/2006 6:28 am Last Read: |
Hi guys. Ol Tazzermans back. I see Tony's been keeping you entertained while I've been busy. That little schmuck. I've GOT to find something to keep him busy.. Anyway, as you can probably tell from the title of this post, I'm struggling BIG TIME. I love my wife, very very much.. I really don't want to lose her or the life we've created BUT and this is a huge BUT I'm gay. Ok ok ok... I know, I call myself bisexual and in reality, the ol Skanky Man Whore really doesn't care all that much who or what he's fucking or sucking. Tony cares even less as long as SOMEBODY is playing with him, but in all honesty, at this point in my life, I'd be more than happy to give up women altogether in favor of men. Men are just SOOO much more fun.. Yep, you heard it here first. I'm gay as the fucking day is long. Fuck this bisexual shit. I'm a gay man who occasionally likes having sex with women but quite frankly, I could do with out them. They're all a bunch of fucking hormonally deranged beasts. All of em. Who needs 'em? In a perfect world, I would be able to keep my relationship with my wife. We are friends for life, partners, roomies even.... and still screw around with guys on the side. This MIGHT not be as far fetched a solution as it might seem. The wifey is pretty much non-sexual at this point. She can take it or leave it. The problem as I see it lives on the emotional side of things, the stuff that she calls 'intimacy'. This is the only real stopping point on all this. But personally, I think we CAN be 'intimate' with each other without having sex. Is that really possible? I'm sure she doesn't think so. I love her, she loves me, we confide and rely on each other. We share everything, we're there for each other..... How much MORE fucking intimate can a couple get? I know I know, I'm fooling myself here but hey, a guy can dream can't he? Besides, I have chatted with a couple of guys who HAVE worked out a relationship just like this. I guess I want my cake and I want to eat it also. I really don't know where to go from here. I'm a lost cause I guess, destined to be celebate for life OR rip apart the one good thing I've had and invested over 17 yrs in. WTF should I do? I open this up to you guys 'cause I KNOW there are lot of you out here that are struggling with exact same dilemma. HELP! |
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5/17/2006 10:03 am |
Greeting Tazzerman2000 From reading your post I feel that you have all the answers to your questions,Just knowing which way to go is the real question.I feel for you! Life really is a BITCH at time.Good luck with what ever you do choose. Best Wishes Jimblue
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5/17/2006 1:37 pm |
May be the sexes should remain separate just donate your sperm to a girl you like the look of;saves working up a sweat.
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5/18/2006 1:09 am |
Hey Tazzer dude, I wondered how long it was going to take you to admit it. FORMAL WELCOME to the all boys club. You know the first thing i'd say off hand is that you shouldn't approaach this fast, many things that work out are truly kinda improved on the spot, if truth be told. There are couples that make it work, but it really takes desire on both parts to communicate in fact MORE, rahter than less, cause to pull it off, both of you will on occasion have to have the patience of a saint. And you should expect your life to never quite be the same,but hopefully much better. But ease in slow, and remember whatever it was years ago that made you communicate, take that out and use it to rebuild trust and empathy. you both will need it. OR SCREW EVERYTHING I SAID, AND IM BEHIND YOU ANY WAY THATS BEST !
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5/18/2006 7:57 am |
wow, im not sure what u should do but i wish u the best of luck with your situation. I agree with u on the not driving while blazed comment, id much rather be somewhere safe. But since we live out far away from town or any cities, about 30 min drive, we dont see many police in our neighborhood. We just stick to the easy roads around home. ty
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5/24/2006 6:12 am |
Just read your newer blogs; was away for almost a week and had no computer time. This entry needs a response. Needless to say, I appreciate your situation ans ache for you. You have 17yrs invested; I have 25. My wife, unlike yours, knows that I like men but does not know I am again active with them. You have confessed to your wife. You now admit to being gay, not bi. Is this the doing of the therapist? You don't mention. And how is the couple's counseling going? I will presume (based on your recent unfortunate injuries) that you and your wife now sleep in separate bedrooms. You say you now have little if any interest in sex with your lady. You also say she has little sexual appetite. I'm sorry for this. For me, being with men has increased my appetite for my wife. Being with men has helped return me to the man I was when my wife and I married, and she has reacted to the changes by herself being more interested in sex. Oh - and we have done a lot of talking and crying. You may be able to salvage the marriage and have friends w/benefits. But it will take a lot of understanding on her part as well as good couples and sex counseling. And the sex counseling perhaps should be for her as well. Also, depending on age, she may need a tune-up from her gyno. As you know all too well, there is no simple solution for your problem or for your hunger. I wish you only the best and encourage you to go slowly before making major decisions. Of you would like to chat, we can. Meanwhile, stay well. Tom
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6/29/2006 4:59 am |
The good side and better side of marriage, The second yr of marriage my wife got menopause really bad, and kicked me out of the house, she says she dont need no man ever again, That was great because I did, I needed my male friends to help me with this little problem, of my marriage, They gave me of advice to get on my knees and suck them dry, get on your back and take it like the asswhore you are, I did and I love it as much as I can get, Well oneday she wanted me to do something on the roof for her so While I was up there, she said I heard from some friends that you have been serviceing the friends you have, from sucking on their cocks and drinking up there cum, to getting on your back and having them fuck you over and over until they are dry, Why are you doing this, your not gay, I just looked at her and smiled and said YOU told me if you were a woman, you might understand what I am going through, WELL I have been sucking on cock and drinking down cum by the buckets and having everyman friend I have fucking me on a regular bases, and having them shot deep inside of me as much as they want, and I can never get enough, I have been doing everything that a woman would do and I love it, and I still cant get menopause, and they love it, because all their wives shut them off too, and I became their bitch and I Love it, and so do they, So what im doing is what you told me to do, Go out and become a woman and you might know what I feel like, I said Honey I do I love men and their hard cocks just waiting for me to make them all happy, But I cant get Menopause, to make them unhappy with me...
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