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Becoming a Tgirl lesbain.
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Apr 29, 2012 3:46 pm
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With me it was because of the HIV and AIDS epidemic in the past plus other STDs that influenced me to becoming a Tgirl lesbian for a while. Not being a lesbian with other Tgirls but with real GG women.
I love being fucked and becoming a lesbian for a few years was just another one of my phases that I went through similar to when I went through my phases of being a white slut and just dating black men and another phases of just being with Hispanic men, etc.
Although I have only a couple of times, I do not do sex with men just as a nude man, but only have sex with men with me as a woman. I mean wearing makeup on my face, my hair in a feminine manner and dressed in lingerie of some sort and also freshly douched. Mainly being as a female, girl and woman. The desire for lesbian sex with another Tgirl has never appealed to me.
When the diseases were at epidemic proportions I thought that if I became a lesbian and were just with women that like using strap on dildos that I could still safely be fucked. I did enlist the services of Dominatrixes, some of them pros, to fuck me strapon dildos. Of course I was the submissive lesbian dressed en femme.
I went to gay bars that were mainly frequented by lesbians. Many times a feminine woman wearing a strap on harness around her hips has fucked me in the ass while I was en femme.
There was a time that I was introduced to a bull dyke that was very butch by a Tgirlfriend of mine, Linda. The bull dyke’s name was Marty was a New Yorker of Italian descent and talked like a New Yorker. Linda had a relationship with another butch bull dyke named Billy, who had a southern accent and it was a bf/gf relationship and total role reversal with Linda as the gf and Billy as the bf. We double dated with me as Marty’s date and met at a gay bar that was mostly lesbians. Marty and Billy were roommates and both dressed and totally acted like men. They did not look at all like women. After the first date Linda and I were taken home with the 2 dykes and fucked just like women by them while they wore strapons. Billy took Linda to ‘his’ bedroom to fuck her and Marty took me to ‘his’ bedroom to fuck me.
I became Marty’s girlfriend as we got into a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. Marty and Billy treated Linda and I just like we were real women and we were just like girls when we were around them and thought of them as our boyfriends. The 4 of us hung out together with Linda and myself as the ‘women’ and Marty and Billy as the ‘men’. This lasted for almost a year. The ‘guys’ wanted Linda and I to move in with them and be like their wives but we never did. Even though I had to work as a male Marty never saw me as one and only as a female. Because of always wearing my artificial glue on female body parts, Marty never even saw my male genitalia. Marty only saw me with my breasts and pussy attached to me. Yes, this was a very unusual relationship and lifestyle but it was real. I was very comfortable with it because I knew I could not catch any STDs this way and Marty treated me just like I was a woman and always called me ‘doll’. Linda felt the same as I did with Billy.
There is a gay bar in Reno that is mainly lesbians and butch bull dykes. I have been thinking about getting dolled up in my feminine finest, getting fresh douched and going there and seeing if I can get picked up by a butch dyke and maybe even starting a bf/gf relationship with ‘him’.
At least I can be fucked regularly and will not have to worry about STDs.
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The life expectancy of a sperm
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Mar 31, 2012 3:37 pm
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Most of us have seen pictures and films in animation of a sperm traveling and swimming like little tadpoles or pollywogs inside a vagina and up the fallopian tubes seeking the egg to penetrate inside a woman. Actually it is a double penetration for the woman when she conceives and becomes pregnant. She is penetrated with a penis and then the sperm performs its own penetration inside her by penetrating the egg making her pregnant.
I have often wondered what happens inside me when a man cums and ejaculates inside me. I have wondered how long the sperm will live after ejaculation. The questions I always had are does the bacteria in the anus, rectum, colon and intestinal tract immediately kill the sperm? Those areas are known for being nasty and just how well would a sperm do inside there?
The intestinal tract is known for absorbing whatever liquid or soft substance that is in it. I do know that the tract will absorb water. There have been times that I have slept with a tampon inserted inside me, which I do not do to often and do not recommend, and when I woke up I had difficulty removing the tampon when I was sitting on the toilet because my vagina (rectum) had absorbed all the moisture and the tampon was stuck to the walls of my vagina (rectum). I had to inject some water up my tunnel to soak up the tampon to be able to remove it. Sometimes I have inserted the tampon to soak up semen inside my honey hole to keep it from seeping out and have fallen asleep next to my lover.
In my feminine mindset I have wondered what the sperm are doing in my tummy after a man has ejaculated inside me while fucking me. Are the sperm still alive and swimming around in my tummy traveling the length of my intestine or did the bacteria immediately kill them all?
I used our newest tool, the internet, to investigate this matter. From what I learned from different websites that are supposed to be authorities on things like this is that sperm can live and survive in the intestinal tract, which includes the colon, rectum and anus for anywhere from 4 to 12 hours. One article said about 4 hours and another said 12 hours but there were more articles supporting 12 hours compared to 1 saying 4 hours, there was also one saying about 8 hours.
That means that after my lover and I have sex like a man and a woman, me the woman of course, and we fall asleep that after I have awakened his sperm are still swimming around in my tummy trying to get me pregnant with his baby. I became euphoric at the thought of being knocked up by my lover. Also in my feminine thinking I have wondered and fantasized about becoming pregnant, giving birth and becoming a mom and being called ‘mommy’.
The semen, which is the thick liquid form that carries the sperm from inside the man’s body into the female’s body during ejaculation, is absorbed through the intestinal wall. The sperm cannot penetrate the intestinal wall and have to remain in the intestine. But from what I have read they can still swim like the little tadpoles they resemble inside the tummy of their host.
If a man shoots a big thick load I can actually feel him ejaculating inside me when he cums if he shoots a powerful load in jet like spurts. The sensation is one of the most pleasant things I have ever experienced. I can feel the jet like spurts hit my intestinal wall and then the wonderful warm wetness starts to spread inside me. Some men just gush and still even then if I cannot feel the spurts I can still feel the warm wetness start to spread inside me. In either case it is a wonderful sensation feeling a man cum inside me. It makes me feel that I have just been bred and mated with. I have a sense of belonging knowing that something from inside his body is now inside of mine and his millions of little sperm are swimming in my tummy trying to make us into a mated paternal couple.
The thought of having his little sperm swimming around inside my tummy after we have fucked is very pleasing.
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Why post lies and false information.
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Feb 24, 2012 3:35 pm
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I think we all know who they are but we have a person on here that likes to post some political BS on here regularly and he has a couple of allies here also that support his crap. His views are his own and if someone does not like someone, that is their right.
But let's be truthful and honest with the information and statements that are made.
This person will list a news source at the top of an article. A few times I have checked that news source to follow the trail of information that this person posted and found that the article or video did not exist where he said he got it at. When he gets called on his bogus bull crap he will say he actually got the information from another news source than he originally posted. But even going there it could not be found.
Spreading false information and facts is out and out downright bold face lying!
When I was growing up I was taught in school that honesty and fairness was very important and that lying about political matters was what they had done in Nazi Germany and Communist Russia.
In the USA and Canada we pride ourselves with being honest.
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Internet tough guy rick, a laugh a minute!
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Feb 13, 2012 6:32 am
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I found it amusing to see this particular new group has formed in OP groups. Our old rude, crude, insulting and disrespectful buddy rick, who even Jesus thinks is a dickhead, has formed his own group in OP. I mean this is a chuckle a second just reading his agenda and rules is a good laugh and shows what a self absorbed hypocrite he his.
He states, Do not bring any form of drama or bullying into his chat room. Comments abusing a 3rd party will be deleted. Any comments abusing him will be dealt with in the usual manner, lol. He also states, please be courteous and respectful and in return I will be respectful towards you.
The first line, do not bring any form of drama or bullying in his chat room. Well geez, this is the first laugh and a good one at that! Just who brings more drama and bullying into other peoples blogs other than rick? He is a master of that! Probably about the only thing he does do well.
Next line, comments abusing a 3rd party will be deleted. Doesn’t rick do plenty of that himself? Or is he saying that it is ok for him to verbally abuse President Obama but do not dare say a bad word about GW Bush. He is being very hypocritical here.
Any comments abusing him will be dealt with in the usual manner, lol. Now this one is very funny also. Are we supposed to be afraid of rick? Just what can he do other than ban us from his group….but who wants to be part of that anyway, certainly not me. I am certainly not afraid of this guy, no reason to be, he is just mouth.
Please be courteous and respectful and in return I will be respectful towards you.
Now does anybody really believe that! How many times in here have we seen rick be disrespectful of others.
This rick is a laugh a minute!
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I was going to be married and be a wife, but???
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Jan 17, 2012 3:37 pm
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I had met a wonderful man online and he found me from out of here on OP. He saw my profile and thought that I would make the perfect wife for him and we started corresponding. It started out with us writing to each other every few days and then it turned daily and even sometimes sending short notes to each other several times a day.
We began becoming intrigued with each other and were already developing deep feelings of affection for each other. I was starting to feel for him as a woman does a man and could see myself falling in love with him and loving him as a woman would a man. He was also developing similar feelings for me and was thinking of me as a woman and would have loved me as a man does a woman. He was thinking of me as a woman and as she or her, instead of a he or him. He wrote to me like I was a woman and I loved it. He referred to me as honey or baby just like I was his wife or GF and I called him honey just like he was already my BF or husband.
Our correspondence graduated to phone conversations and we started talking on a weekly basis. We lived quite a ways from each other as he lived in the south, Louisiana and myself in Nevada. We were making plans for me to move to him and we were going to be married in a gay church, with me dressed as and being a bride. I was going to be a housewife for the rest of my life. I had contacted a few gay ministers in Louisiana to arrange our wedding and marriage. I found several that would be happy to officiate our wedding in their church between a man and a TG woman. Of course the marriage would not have been legal according to state law but it would have been real and legal to us and also recognized by the church and minister and that means it would have been okay with God according to the ministers. We were going to be married in New Orleans, a very romantic city and also have our honeymoon there at a gay inn that specializes in honeymoon lodging. I would have been taken back to our room on our wedding night after the wedding to consummate our marriage and be fucked by my husband and take his dick up my butt receiving his cum inside me for the first time as his wife.
Even being born a genetic male, I was told it was okay for me to live as a woman and be a mans wife because God would have accepted me as a woman, since that was what I truly desired to be. These were questions that I asked the ministers because in my heart I wanted to feel like I was really a married woman and a wife. My future husband had pretty much the same feelings as me. Our marriage would have been just like any straight hetero marriage in America and I would have been just like any American housewife. There is a gay club close to his house that we would have went to frequently and regularly. I could go there as a woman without any hassles and the staff and patrons there would have known us as husband and wife. We would also have spent a lot of time in New Orleans were there are many other TG women like me. There are sections there that Tgirls can live as women and be themselves.
Our wedding would also have been just like any straight hetero wedding and I would have been the bride, and the little bride and groom figure on the wedding cake, the bride would have been representing me. I was going to wear a white dress but was having trouble deciding on a wedding gown or just a simple cocktail dress with a veil.
I would have been as and lived as a woman totally, 24/7/365 and 100% as a woman for the rest of my life. Every morning after I gave my husband his piece of ass to start our day, I would have got out of bed and did my ritual of making myself a woman for that day by doing my makeup, attaching my garter clips to my stocking welts and dressing as a woman. I would have been douching regularly, probably every other day, to keep myself clean inside for my husband. Me being a woman totally was what my future husband wanted and would have expected of me, this was something that I also sincerely wanted and desired. Every night I would have been the woman and wife sexually and would be taking it up the butt from my husband as screwed me like I was a woman. I also would have been sucking him frequently and sometimes to completion and swallowing his load like a good wife.
We were planning him coming to Nevada to spend a few days with me and I in return was planning on going to spend a week with him and with husband and wife conditions to kind of test drive each other to see if we were compatible as husband and wife. I would have his dinner ready for him when he got home or he could take me into the bedroom to screw me.
This was all going well until I went to visit one of my cardiologists about 2 weeks ago. I have had some heart problems and some other medical problems, high blood pressure and type 2 diabetes. The blood pressure and diabetes I think I could have controlled with strict diet and regular aerobic exercise, which I had planned on doing anyway to stay as a slender woman and keep my body as feminine as possible and my butt firm. I am five foot eight inches tall and I wanted to keep my weight at about 130 or even a little lower if possible and with my frame and bone structure would have made me skinny enough to not have high blood pressure and keep the diabetes in check. I was going to be a wife and wanted to look good, feminine and womanly for my husband.
The heart problem is a different issue. I was told that I will need an operation in about 3 years unless something happens that I need it sooner. This operation does have a slight fatality rate of 7 percent but it needs to be done or it can be the end of me if it is not. In order to have this operation I cannot retire as I planned on to live as a housewife and instead have to keep working to keep my insurance so that I can have this very expensive and costly surgery done. It is something that cannot be done by just any cardiologist or cardiac surgeon and has to be done by a specialist.
What pisses me off is that I have worked all my life, served my country and feel that now in my later years that I should have the right to retire.
I cannot retire to go live as a woman and wife with the man that was going to be my husband. This is very disappointing for me and I had a hard time writing him the letter that ended our relationship. When I first got the bad news from the cardiologist I just tried to ignore it and was going to continue with our plans no matter what because this was what I wanted in my life. Then it started sinking in as I realized it would be very unfair to him and I did not expect him to pay for my costly operation, which I do not think he could anyway, which would be tens of thousands of dollars for the surgery and hospital. This could be about a forty or fifty thousand dollars and even more and even with this crap insurance I have which is expensive, will still leave me deeply in debt for the rest of my life.
I figured it would be better to tell the man that was going to be my husband and end the relationship now. He was planning on coming to visit me in the very near future and if he would have made love to me like I was a woman and fucked me, it would have been much worse to end it. Physical intimacy always seems to intensify a relationship and if we had made love like a man and woman, it would have made it worse.
I am very disappointed and kind of hurt that I cannot resume my life with the man that was going to be my husband.
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Another Thanksgiving...and no man to cook dinner for.
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Nov 24, 2011 3:25 pm
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In the business that I work in I usually have to work holidays unless it is my regularly scheduled day off. Today is one of those days I have to work because it is not a regular day off from work.
But every year I imagine what it would be like to be cooking Thanksgiving dinner for my husband. Which I wish I had one.
The turkey or ham is in the oven and I also have the rest of the meal cooking. I wear an apron over my dress as I am cooking so I won't have it messed up for dinner. As he sits in the front room watching the football games or a movie, I check on him regularly to see if he needs another beer, glass of wine or mixed drink or some munchies, which I will take to him. Being a good wife I will take good care of my husband. When I deliver his drink or appetizers, he thanks me by placing his hand on my bottom and giving me a pat or squeeze as he says, "Thank you baby". As I turn to walk away I turn my head and smile at him seductively to let him know that later that evening I will give him a piece of ass and let him screw me when we go to bed for the night. He may respond by giving me another pat or squeeze on the bottom. My makeup and hair are perfect and I am dressed in a cocktail dress as if we are going out for the evening.
I have also desired to being a mom and preparing dinner for my family. Mom (me) is in the kitchen preparing the Thanksgiving meal as my husband and kids are in the front room watching television. They are getting hungry from smelling the aroma as the food is cooking. My husband yells to the kitchen from the front room, "Honey, when is dinner gonna be ready". The kids follow with, "Yeah mom, we're hungry".
I simply smile to myself.
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He is just not that good!
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Nov 2, 2011 1:52 am
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I listen to several of the pop/soft rock radio stations in the Reno - Tahoe area that also mix a little of country crossover music. They play pretty much the type of soft rock, pop and country mix music that adults listen to. I have never heard not even one song by Justin Bieber played on the stations I listen to and those are the most popular stations in this area. Also when I travel I listen to contemporary pop and rock music on radio stations in other areas.
Tonight I heard why. I watched Dancing With The Stars tonight, which featured Justin Bieber and he stunk! Just plain old sucked as an entertainer! This guy cannot sing or dance either one. His first performance looked as if he was attempting to be the next Michael Jackson but he did not have anywhere near the talent that MJ had. His singing voice was flat, muffled and didn’t carry and his dancing was stiff with no rhythm. His second attempt at entertaining was with Boys 2 Men and it was good that they were there to over shadow Bieber with their harmonizing or else Bieber would have stunk up the room. The guy also seemed to have a little arrogance about him.
Most of the entertainers that appear as guests on that show will applaud the 2 dancers or dance team that are dancing on the floor in front of them while performing, Bieber did not! Maybe he thought it was all about him. The sad part was he got standing ovations for his terrible performances.
I also watch America's Got Talent when it airs and I have seen more talent and better performances on there than Justin Bieber has. Maybe when he gets older and does not appeal to the 9 through 15 year old girls anymore he will fade, spend all his money, and become a broke drunken drug addict that we see on Inside Edition or Entertainment Tonight.
Another sad part is that he makes more money than an entire military division that protects us. 
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Why are they here, why I am here.
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Oct 11, 2011 3:42 pm
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This is gay sexually based website that is for people to meet and hook up with each other, or that is what I see it as anyway. It seems the blogs in here would be for people concerning gay issues, or at least talking about gay experiences, right?
But yet we have several that do not discuss any gay issues at all and drag their political BS in here with them. They desperately try to convince the rest of us that the political party that has backed the gays, lesbians, bisexual and transgendered the most and given us the most freedom is all evil.
Why do they have to bring their political agenda to a gay website. Are they that weak in character that they have to come to a website like this and are not strong enough to defend themselves on website that is designed for and involved with political issues.
One such character that continually verbally assaults the president and others on the left, to me he appears that he must be mentally challenged. Never does he discuss any gay issues. He tries to convince the rest of us, that the political party that has backed us the most and people in our lifestyle, are all wrong for us. I have even caught him fabricating false information and cornered him on it and he banned me from his blog. Pretty weak, right? I think most will know who I mean, his cowardly verbal assault is continual and almost daily.
There are a couple of others that become insulting and just got to have the last word and will get obstinate and result to name calling but if someone attacks backs they are quick to accuse them of name calling. If one does not agree with them, they claim the person is a liberal. I know this first hand, I am a moderate and if I don’t agree with them they have declared that I am a liberal. Truth is that even though I’m not, I would rather be a liberal as opposed to being a closed minded, tunnel thinking individual like them that quote false facts and figures. The dictionary definition of a ‘liberal’ is a freethinking individual, not influenced by someone else.
There are the ones that try to convince us how good we had it during the GWB years. They seem to forget that we were around during that administration and remember just how it really was.
I don’t want to get political but I do blog about other things also. By society I would be considered gay and TG. I have sex as a woman with men, I let men use me as a woman sexually. Even though I think of myself as a woman and do my best to make myself appear as a woman, by societies standards I am considered gay because I am a genetic male. There are people in here, that I can relate to because there are men in here that like ‘women’ like me, a woman that takes it up the butt. There are also other ‘girls’ and ‘women’ in here that are like me and also consider themselves feminine females and also enjoy having sex with men.
Growing up and advancing through life in a battle with dual personalities, one being very masculine and the other a feminine woman, the feminine side finally won out.
This is why I come to this website because there are those that we can relate to each other. There are other ‘girls’ and men both that understand someone like me and I them.
Definition of a girl, woman or female; someone with an opening to be used by males for sexual purposes such as a ‘pussy’ or ‘cunt’, I have a ‘pussy’ or ‘cunt’ that I use for sexual intercourse even though it is anal intercourse.
I really don’t come her to blog politically but sometimes I see something posted by one of these right wing conservatives that is totally asinine. That is when I respond. I don’t mind people having their opinions but why try to force them on us. We are not on a political conservative website forcing our opinions on them.
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I checked the box!
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Oct 6, 2011 3:23 pm
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During a recent visit to my private physician that I use other than the VA, I had to update my information because I hadn't been there in a while and was handed a clipboard with a form on it from the receptionist.
The form had the usual standard information requests on it like name, age, birth date, etc., and it also had the boxes to check what sex one is. This was the first time I have seen it done this way, it had a box with Male written beside it and below that was another box with Female written beside it and below it was yet another box that had Transgendered written beside it.
I went there dressed as a male although I do spend most of my time other than at work dressed as a female and wearing makeup. Even at work I wear female underthings under my male outer clothing.
I started giving this some thought before I checked a box. Many times before on various other forms I have been tempted just out of fun to check the box that said Female. I only ever did that once and that was when I was applying to be a cocktail waitress at a gay drag club but the owner knew what I was and thought nothing of it. I was also in total fem (wearing a dress and makeup) at the time I was filling out the application.
I was caught off guard but I built up the nerve and checked the Transgendered box. The receptionist looked at me funny when I returned the clipboard to her and she asked, "Did you make a mistake here on your sex?" I answered, "No, I checked the right box". She just told me to go have a seat and the nurse would soon be out to get me. The nurse looked at me oddly as she called my name and then guided me to the examining room. She did the usual stuff taking my blood pressure and temperature and was writing things down on a chart. I noticed that the form had the word 'male' crossed out and 'Transgendered' had been written in beside it.
My doctor looked at me oddly after he came in. I don't know if he remembers or not but he has had his finger up my butt on 2 occasions while giving me a prostrate exam. He did not mention anything about me being TG during that visit but he did now know after I updated my info on the form.
I know that doctors and medical professionals do have to practice confidentiality and what happens there has to stay there unless I release info myself. I want to ask my doctor if I can come as a woman for a pelvic examination. Actually it would be a rectal exam but but similar to a woman getting a pelvic exam. I would be on my back on the table with my feet in the stirrups and a speculum inserted and holding open my hole as the doctor looks up inside me.
I want to build up the nerve to ask him. I would love to make an appointment and go in totally as a woman wearing a dress and makeup and say while smiling, "Hi, I'm here for my pelvic exam, I have an appointment"...
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Thanks Guys
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Oct 4, 2011 5:20 am
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A few years ago that was what I said after having sex. I was the main attraction and center of a mini gang bang with 3 guys. They each did me twice before loosening my restraints and letting me up.
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