Buzz Cut
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Jan 26, 2012 10:51 pm
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So I haven't really gone anywhere or been up to a whole lot of anything new. My sister-in-law walked out on my brother and it looks like this time it's for good. She's moved to Lethbridge, enrolled my nephew in a new school and her lawyer is talking to my brother's lawyer. I'm keeping a low profile and staying out of the cross fire. Needless to say I'll be the one who has to pick up the pieces. (rather not at this point)
I've been hanging out on another site. It's far more interactive, cost me nothing and a lot of my loyal blog followers are there so for me it's a win-win situation although I must admit there are a few people here that I am very fond of even if I'm lousy at keeping in touch.
Only other thing that is new is with all the chinooks that have been blowing through here bumping up are temperatures I decided the only thing I could do with my hair was buzz it all off! That is never a good sign! LOL
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CCCcold
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Jan 17, 2012 9:28 pm
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A couple of weeks ago we were experiencing record breaking highs the last two days we are experiencing record breaking cold. With the wind chill it could get down to -50c tonight.
I've been blogging almost every day on the other site which I find far more interactive than this one and you can't beat the cost.
My brother and sister-in-law have separated and she along with my nephew have moved to Lethbrige which is a couple of hours away. Mom is upset understandably and my brother still isn't talking to me so in other words things are pretty much par for course.
I'm tired and am going to bed.
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Who's On Top?
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Jan 13, 2012 5:58 am
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After stepping back from things for a year or so I'm starting to get things going again. There were some things I just needed to take care of in my own life. Besides, I've often taken time to myself to sort things, mostly in my head, and then get back on track again. I've always had a clear idea as to what I wanted to do in life so I had a general idea of what I needed to do. I'm not the type of person who does well with to much structure to begin with so when life throughs me a curve ball I'm usually able to deal with it and there have been some major curve balls over the years.
After taking the time to get settled into my new apartment and then a lot more time to just relax and enjoy it I finally started to really look at where I was in my life. Overall I was actually quite surprised when I actually looked at some of the things I had done. At first glance it really looked like a whole lot of things had changed but then when I actually started to talk to people about some of the things I did I realized that what I did do had a tremendous effect on my community and beyond. While I'm doing hardly anything at home I continue to be involved at the provincial and national level. Instead of developing and delivering programs to the people who were in crises I am now helping shape health care policy impacting the delivery of services locally, provincially and at the national level. It seams is all I ever do is sit in meetings and all people ever want is my opinion which I am always more then happy to share but at least now when I do I know what I am talking about. I've also realized that I really no longer have the need to fix everyone Else's problems anymore. It's just not my job. I like what I do even though sometimes while I'm doing it I don't always know the impact it has on the lives of others. So for as long as I can find ways to give back to the community I live in I will continue to stay involved in some way. If I have a need to fix anyone all I need to do is spend a few days with family and I'll be over that.
One of the things I never really prepared for was still being here and having another thirty or more years to go. That and the fact that I would actually be healthy and feel like actually doing anything like setting long term goals. I mean when I was supposedly dying I just worked with those around me and if you do anything long enough you eventually become an expert at what you to. The thing is for me it never seams like work because I've always enjoyed it. After a while every one I know is either living with HIV or in some way connected to doing HIV work including all my friends. I'm not only lucky to have survived an epidemic while far to many didn't I was able to make incredible friends while doing the things I love. A lot of people never get that opperutity in there lives.
The other thing that threw a curve ball at me was Phil showing up out of know where after twenty three years. It was literally like someone coming back from the dead for both of us and we just grabbed on to each other. In the last five years all we've really done was sort through the previous thirty years. It was good because there were a lot of things I just needed to talk out, a lot of tears I needed to still cry and a lot of laughter that I thought I had missed out on in order to get me to where I am today. If he hadn't come back into my life I most likely never would d have opened up and for sure would not be writing this today. The friends that I made though writing this blog helped me not only get out of myself but back into the larger world. Now I'm far more comfortable doing things I never thought I'd ever do or in some cases ever do again. For instance I hang out with the straight guys every morning before work and we just talk about guy stuff. Believe me that was on crowd I never thought I'd be a part off. Now I'm just one of the guys.
Where does that leave Phil and I. Well, we really don't know. He's in Tempa Florida working on his medical degree and I'm up here doing my thing. We chat every day, plan on getting together and maybe going to Europe other fun places. For now he is content doing his thing as I am doing mine. We've both realized that as good of friends we are there is no way we could ever live together. I mean we tried when we were in college and that ended up with us not talking for over two decades we figure it's best to leave things the way they are. Besides spending the last year doing nothing I've noticed there have been a lot of hot young guys cruising me lately.
I guess while I was busy doing what it is I do I've grown into the daddy type. I'm not, the last thing I want is to be a daddy and as hot as some of those guys are that are in there thirties I want someone a bit closer to my age. Besides there are a lot of hot forty and fifty year olds running around. I don't know, this daddy/son, top/bottom, having to know every little sexual preferring and quirk about all your sexual partners kind of takes the surprise out of maybe recovering them as a relationship grows. The last time I seriously did any dating was over twenty years ago if you consider going to the baths dating and things are a whole lot different today with everyone cruising the Internet instead of the bars. Maybe it's safer but the HIV stats don't reflect it but it sure seams like it takes some people a whole lot longer to work through what they are into or not. Sure there is a lot to see and do and it turns me on but that doesn't mean I have to necessarily do every thing or at the same time rule anything out. For the most part I'd be more then content to just hang out with someone who just wanted to share his life with me just as I want to share mine with him. For me that's as complicated as it needs to be. Being one of the guys is more then enough without having to be into any scene.
Ironic I should say that. A new soldier who just got into the army base near by has been cruising me all week trying to set up a heavy leather date. It's his first time ever away from home and he's just out of the closet so he's exploring more then anything which is okay. If that's his scene I can give him some pointers and most likely he'll move on unless he's really good at it... LOL With relationships you never know. For me they usually what happen. I'll be hangen out with the guys and one of them will pull be aside when I least expect it and rock my world.
Who knows starting next week my blog my start drawing a whole new readership?
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Shorts and T shirts in the Great White North
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Jan 5, 2012 5:49 am
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I took this photo a couple of years ago. It's what January in the great white north is suppose to look like. Instead we are dealing with record breaking temperatures, chinook winds strong enough to blow 18 wheelers of the highways and wild grass fires. It's dry and fire bans have been put in place. I've never seen the river so low. The news is all about the fragile economy, the occupy movement and Justin Timber lake getting engaged. PLEASE! Talk about marriage of convenience, but I digress. All things point to this part of the world entering into a drought cycle. Historically the last 100 have been unusually wet. Prior to that this part of Canada was considered to be uninhabitable and even the first nations people only pasted through this part of the country on there way to more fertile ground.
I'm going through one of my darker phases. It happens to me every ten years or so. I've learned to go with rely on my feelings, go the flow and trust the process. It is a springboard to change which is imposable to predict because in the past I've always underestimated the results. They have always exceeded my dreams. I have always have what I need and when I need it and when I get it I realize it is all I ever wanted. There is a plan and I/we are all a part of it. Each of us is part of the whole and without one of us none of us are complete. The only thing I have to do, the greatest thing I can do is just be. Just be me. I can do it better then anyone else. Once I discovered that, everything else just kind of fell into place. Considering that over 15 years ago I was giving 6 months to live I figure I have no reason to complain.
Some people think you should live each day as it was your last day. I don't. I live each day as my first day. It is a gift filled with unlimited possibilities to be celebrated.
I have no idea what is in store but one thing I know is it's going to be interesting.
The best is yet to be.
As always, now and forever peace and joy,
Just B.
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Silent Night
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Dec 28, 2011 5:32 am
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I had a rather quiet Christmas. My brother and sister-in-law weren't talking to each other. My brother wasn't talking to me. My nephew was obsessed with his new video game so wasn't talking to anyone. So, it was a quiet Christmas. I spent three days at mom's before coming home and I know that both mom and I had a good time. If the rest of the family wants to pout then that's their choice.
It has been unseasonably warm all month. We have no snow so the great white north is looking rather brown.
I've got my doctor's appointment out of the way but do have to get more blood work done for my annual general physical and then see my family doctor again next month. Other then that everything looks good.
I have no plans for new years eve. I haven't done anything for years so I'm just sticking with what has become a yearly tradition.
I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and I wish you all the best in the new year.
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Seasons Greatings
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Dec 24, 2011 5:38 am
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I'm off to my mom's for a few days and just wanted to wish you all the best of the season.
I hope you all have a great weekend. Don't forget the wrap up that rascal if you're going to be playing those reindeer "games". Some gifts aren't just worth giving or getting. Play smart, USE CONDOMS!
Safe journeys, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah and Happy New Year.
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A Mac Truck, A Missed Appointment and a Roast Beef
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Dec 12, 2011 1:47 pm
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For the past couple of days I've felt like I've been run over by a Mack truck. This afternoon is the first time I've actually been able to get around without a cane, even the stairs. Coincidentally (or not) Phil is having some mobility difficulties as a result of his TB treatment. It's also playing havoc on his one kidney. I told him he could have one of mine if he needs one.
I dragged my butt out of bed this morning and went down to the hospital where I was suppose to have a tela-health meeting with my HIV specialist. They screwed up and booked a room at the Red Deer hospital instead. Next time I see him I'm going to see if we can link up over skype instead cutting out the middle man.
Winter is here and while it's not too cold there is enough snow to make things look seasonal. Christmas should be interesting. My brother supposedly is still not talking to me. I haven't really noticed.
I'm going to through a roast in the oven and have a nap.
I really need to pay more attention to editing. "A Mack Truck, A Missed Oppointment and an Roast Beef" is totally unacceptable for someome with a degree in english liturature. I blame it on the meds.
I'm way behind on keeping up with OP!
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Canadian Invasion
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Dec 9, 2011 4:44 am
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Four of the top fine albums on this weeks billboard charts are by Canadian artists. When Canada invades we do it with both culture and class.
1: Christmas
Michael Buble
2: 21
Adele
3: Under The Mistletoe
Justin Bieber
4: Take Care
Drake
5: Here And Now
Nickelback
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