My 'Lil Black Book

A place where I can vent my thoughts and experiences privately.

If only... Jun 11, 2007 11:33 pm
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I envy gay guys who has been accepted by their families after coming out. Because I know I can't. I know my family so much and they're as homophobic as homophobic can be. Just recently my family and I visited our neighbor for lunch. I know my neighbor's brother is (flaming!) gay but they didn't know that. When we got there, they acted normal like they didn't notice.

Anyway after about 2 hours, some guy knocked outside and barged through the house. Apparently that couple were having a fight or something and he's trying to hide from him. They made a scene and it didn't end up well. We called 911 and then the guy went away.

So to make the story short, this situation made another negative impact. We left the house shortly and they told me to avoid people like those. I wasn't out to them so I just kept quiet, but deep inside I was hating their opinion. They're so closed minded. I mean it's not because of their sexual orientation that those things happen, it can happen to anybody... straight or gay.
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So horny... Feb 24, 2007 4:18 pm
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It's been a while since I gave head... I miss it so bad.
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I miss him Jan 12, 2007 5:31 pm
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I'm not seeing my guy anymore... we broke it off before the year ends. But even though I know it's for the best for us not to see each other anymore, part of me misses hanging out with him. I used to ask him out on weekends, or vice versa... so now I'm left with nothing to do on the weekends.

It's just so weird with him. He says he wants to keep our friendship but he's really not getting in touch. He's just full of lies.

But I really miss having someone, even if it was just a discreet relationship. I miss flirting, cuddling, going out to dinners, or just hanging out. I wish to find someone real soon... I just hate that I'm a hopeless romantic...
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Happy New Year to all! Jan 1, 2007 8:52 am
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2006 has been a big learning ground for me. It was the year I started experimenting with guys. I dated, hooked up, and tried to make a discreet relationship. It's a year full of good/bad experiences.

Now that its 2007. I'm hoping to have better experiences. I want to make stronger relationships than what I had before.

So good luck to everybody and I wish us all a happy 2007!
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Merry Christmas to all! Dec 25, 2006 10:12 pm
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I hope everybody had a great time with family/friends! Take care...
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Cute Paramedics Dec 14, 2006 5:09 pm
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Why are all paramedics and firefighters cute? They're all tall, muscular and good looking. I hate them... they make me stare... lol.

But anyways, I'm sure not all of them are straight. Some of them probably just joined the team to see other cute guys. Lucky boys...

Anyway since I'm in the healthcare field as well, I'm still sticking to my plan to join the air force sometime in the future. And I'm joining not coz of the guys... those are just perks...
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Why oh why?? Nov 26, 2006 12:24 am
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Why do I attract the wrong guys? Someone from work just texted me that he thinks I'm cute and that he wants to get to know me. I said I'm seeing somebody (which is true), but if he's someone my type, I probably would take a chance. All I can offer for him is friendship, that's all.
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Made-Up Story Nov 13, 2006 8:48 pm
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I need some help with ideas on how to introduce my "discreet" friend to some of my friends. We've been thinking of some excuse on how we met but it's just difficult. I need a simple but believable story. I need your help guys! Thanks!
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Decisions.. decisions.. Nov 12, 2006 9:58 pm
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I have decided to stay away from hooking up for a while. I'll just stick to my guy (the white dude) and concentrate on him, getting to know him more and stuff.

I almost slept with my vietnamese friend but I'm surprised I had a strong control the night we met. We just talked, share what's happening with our lives, and it was fun. I enjoyed it and he enjoyed hanging out too. I've decided to keep our relationship to be platonic. Be more of friends, and losing the benefits.

And to the last guy I hooked up with, I know you're reading this.. I want to thank you for ending our communication. I know at first we wanted to build some sort of friendship but I'm fine without going further. I actually feel much better about myself. But just a favor, please don't lie about your age or send misleading pictures of yourself (send current ones) the next time you try to meet someone. You're a very nice and successful guy so don't be afraid to show how you really look.

To the other readers, I'm sorry if you have a hard time understanding my blog today... it's just very complicated.
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Rants Nov 11, 2006 8:51 am
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Don't you just hate it when you try to hook up with someone and the other person sends you an old picture? Like a picture taken a year ago??? And once you meet you just realize how big the difference is from the one he sent... it's like meeting a whole new different person.

Another thing I don't like is when they give you the wrong age. I mean saying that you're in you're early thirties when in fact you're in your forties... that's messed up. I went out with an older guy before, who told me that he's 49. He's handsome and fit and even honest enough to tell me he's married. That's fine with me. After sex he told me he's actually 51, which didn't really bother me because it's just a year or two difference from what he told me. I told him if he said that before, it really wouldn't matter.

I guess a little honesty would really be great when hooking up. It's really not too much to ask.
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