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'I Love The Sound Of Detroit Thunder'
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Jul 6, 2008 3:15 pm
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Yeah, I love it- I was just in the back yard, listening to the Brewers finish their demolition of the Pirates(3 game sweep- and if there is anything better in this world, other than being fucked, than listening to a baseball game on the radio whilst doing yard work and having a couple of cold beers, I don't know what it is... OK, there are many things better, but, listening to a ball game, on a Perfect Sunday Afternoon, and the Home Team is Kickin' Ass, and Takin' Names- not much better...)
So, I'm thinking the Neighbor either had a friend come over, or he brought his Muscle out of the Garage- cuz' there I was, in the Fenced-In Back Yard, Weedin' and Waterin', and then I Heard It...
A Muscle Car, Rumble to Life- Just Rumblin' Along...
So Very Nice...
I am a Car Guy, I don't know a lot about cars, but I really like Very Cool Cars- I like the sound of a 68-73 Mopar, with Custom Manifolds, Rumbling to life... somewhat Orgasmic...
I love that sound- I had it for a bit, the car in the picture is my 1970 Javelin, that had a lot of problems, and I ended up sellin' it- I wish I wouldn't have...
I love that sound, that big engine sound- I love power sounds- I love an open 'A' Chord, on a Fender Strat, with a Huge Marshall Stack Behind, Turned Up To 11...
That was so cool, to be in the backyard, and hear them fire up that 'Detroit Thunder'- I tried to sneak a peek through the fence, but, since I was in my Tan-Thru Speedos, I thought it might not be the best idea in the world to go over and see what was goin' on...
It feels so goofy to balance that love of Thunder, to my Love of My Flowers- but it does, in my Goofy Little Head- I wanted to write this, before I forgot to- now, I'm headed back outside, into this most Glorious of Evenings, and I'm gonna work in my Flower Bed... thinking of sum' 'Detroit Thunder'...
Damn, Tiger, Smudgie is fuckin' Horny as Hell... talk to you soon, Bobby
I should go listen to sum' ACDC while I'm outside... I luv's loud music
K, Back Outside- take care, all!! Enjoy the moment!!
Mr. Smudgepot
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'Just Sum Random Thoughts, and Perhaps a Grievance, or Two...'
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Jul 5, 2008 4:42 pm
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Yeah, got 'sum stuff on my mind- this happened about a month ago, and I haven't posted it, 'cuz, basically, I've been pretty God Damn Happy, and I haven't wanted to talk about 'negative things'-
About a month ago, right after 'The Adult' graduated, my second wife, Robin, came over to give Elizabeth her present, and to give me 'sum Black-Eyed Susans (they're flowers...)- and it was a very nice time, we talked about stuff, talked about 'The Adult'- Robin and I can still talk to each other, and I really value that a lot- she met Bobby last weekend, at The Adult's Graduation Party, with the whole family- and she was so cool with the whole thing, bitched at me like she used to, and it was fine- she accepted me, for what I am
When she came over about a month ago, to give the Adult her present, she was the same- but she gave me some news that I found somewhat 'disturbing'
Robin's husband, Billy, plays bass in a band, and he plays at a bar that is owned by someone that I used to play with- Pogo- so, apparently, Pogo has been telling people at the bar, 'Hey, you know Jim is gay?'- that's what Billy told Robin- and the only reason Robin told me, is to tell me that Pogo is a Two-Faced Sun'of'A'Bitch, and not to trust him
it doesn't bother me so much that people know, what bothers me is that people that used to be my friends would hate me, because of that-
it bothers me to feel like i have to hide it
i wish there could be a day when Bobby and I could go into the grocery store, and hold hands-
I was intending on playing again in a band, with a couple other guys, and after Robin told me this, I just decided that I wanted to 'stay retired'- I don't need to wonder what people are thinking about me-
Right now we have a couple of 'places', where we can be ourselves- Bobby came over last night, and kissed me, right in the driveway- 'Gay Paradise', where we can just fuckin' hold hands-
'K, I'm about done- I've been busy with Bobby lately, and busy in my garden- I 'finally, almost' have my front lily bed done, and that's the picture- I got's the front part done, but I got's to work on the back of it- I don't want to disturb the lilies growing there- but, I got's time- Bobby is gonna be gone for a bit, with the Baseball Men, so, I gots'a adjust to that- he had been home the last week, and I got to see a lot of My Man-
Bobby, I'm sorry I'm such an emotional dope- I really miss you
And I Really Love You So Much
This is so stupid, I apologize- take care, friends
Smudgie
P.S. Stuff...
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'The Kiss, Revisited... Take 2...'
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Jun 30, 2008 6:47 pm
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Yeah, so, anyway- I found this internet music radio sight called Jango, and it's been very enjoyable; Bobby and I have listened to a lot of great music there (I'm just gonna be honest, for my own sake, at least, and say that most of the time it's real good background music whilst 'making love'... seriously, it is... keeps the 'Make-Out Sounds' down for the Adult, and, sumtimes you can get a nice rhythm going on the right song... my bad...)- I also have been tuning in on my own, I'm liking it now more than the yahoo radio that I was listening to- this one is easier to adjust to different artists, moods, whatnot...
I found out recently that it's very similar to a myspace thingy, and I could upload a 'Personal Profile' pic, so I did, and I uploaded, 'The Kiss'...
(Bobby hates that pic, now- I had an 8x10 made of it, and it's on my wall right now- I think it's beautiful- he hates it- as much as I luv him, he can be such a dope... 'Bobby, it's beautiful!!', I say, but he don't believe me...)
So, anyway, no big deal, I just listen to Jango, I don't go to other people's profiles...
'Cept sumone did on mine, and I got an email on Jango, from 'sum 'High Maintenance Bitch'- I think that was her handle- 'High Maintenance Bitch'- the email read
'u r discusting'
Well, I was a bit 'put off'- I hit the button to report the email as abusive- hoping to piss her off- and then I responded, and wrote this;
'discusting is spelled, 'disgusting'- have a nice day'
'Sometimes, it's better to treat Stupid People Stupidly- it may make one feel better- Thus, Endeth the Lesson'...
Y'all have a great night- I'm a tad tired- we Celebrated the Adult's Graduation yesterday, all family members were there, the Adult was there, and Bobby was there- Bobby brought his vidcam, and made a short 'Rockumentary' of the events- I told the Adult that tonight- she looked so surprised, I don't think that she had a clue that he was filming- Bobby is so good at doing this, I'm sure that many people weren't aware that he was filming- he's really good-
Aw, shit, I'm runnin' out of gas, again
I'm reposting 'The Kiss' again, because I can, and because I love it- it's on my wall- and because it shows that 'i am discusting'...
the remark from the email doesn't bother me as much as it disappoints me- i thought people now were better than people were 10, or 15 years ago- i'm disappointed that i'm wrong about that
take care, friends, peace
bobby, i luvs you
smudgie
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'Oh... My... Gawd... She's Beautiful!!'
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Jun 26, 2008 5:44 pm
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My Hibiscus! I got her about 3 or 4 weeks ago (I wanted to get a Hibiscus, 'cuz they are soooo beautiful, and try to raise one to be very tall- you can buy them that way, but they're very expensive- the older they are, the more expensive they are- mine was 'only' $9, 'cuz it didn't have flowers yet- potted the little girl, put her on the back deck, read 'sum on raising Hibiscus- they don't need as much sun as I thought, only 2-4 hours of direct sun)- well, she's been 'showin' 'sum buds' lately, and I knew that I would have 'sum flowers soon- or at least I hoped, I hoped that I wouldn't manage to kill it off, like my Red Rose Begonia- I think he has spiders, or 'sumthin'- anyway, he's dying, and I didn't want to loose My Hibiscus... I want to grow Old with that Plant...
So, anyway- checked on her yesterday, she had one bloom that was about to burst, gave her 'sum water, and was hopin' that she would bloom by the weekend- Sunday is going to be an Extremely Awesome, Perfect Day here in Janesville, WI- My Entire Family- My Dad and Sally, My Sister and Joe, and My Brother John and his girlfriend Marlene are coming over to celebrate the Adult's Graduation!!!
And Bobby's goin' to be there, too!!!!!!!!!!
(I haven't seen Bobby in what feels like a lifetime- tonight is Day 8 of an 8-Day road trip- we've been talkin' regularly, but, hey, I mean, c'mon, talk?! I need 'sum lovin', dammit!! He gets home late tonight, and he's off the weekend, and most likely most of next week- I'm gonna see him tomorrow night, and I'm gonna tell him that I want to not be able to sit down Sunday- I'm bringing the gloves and the Boy Butter, Tiger!!)
Anyway, back to the story- gots' home tonight, was rastlin' with a new hose I bought last night for about 45 minutes or so (I unwrapped it wrong- I'm a dope...), watered 'sum stuff in front, and took the hose out into the back...
And Then I Saw Her...
She Was Beautiful...
Oh... My... Gawd!!!
Of course, I had to look at Her, soak up Her Grandeur, and take a picture- Her Name is Elizabeth- 'cuz she's soo Beautiful...
(I thought awhile on this one- I wanted the Most Beautiful Name In The World- well, my mom was Elizabeth, and my daughter is Elizabeth- 'Elizabeth The Hibiscus'... I like it!)
Anyway, that's my story- I want to give Kudos to Serge, who suggested Raspberry Vinaigrette for chicken breasts- I put two Very Large Chicken Breasts in the Raspberry Vinaigrette last night, and put them on the grill tonight... along with 'sum white rice, done on the side burner... used the Raspberry Vinaigrette to dip the chicken and rice in... Very Nice!! Thanks, Serge!! Sweet and Sour, very nice...
Well, I gots' 'sum other things on my mind, but, this is too long as it is... take care, my friends!! I get to see Bobby tomorrow night!! And we have the most wonderful Party planned for Sunday!! It's going to be so, so, so great...
Take care, all, peace... Bobby, Smudgie is really, really, really horny!! Hope you're ready!! Miss you, Tiger!!
The Smudge Pot
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'I Am The Sexiest Man Alive! (Not...)'- Or, 'The First Lilies Of The Season!'
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Jun 22, 2008 1:53 pm
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Or, I could call this post, 'Day 4 of 8 Days Without Tiger!'- yeah, Bobby is off with the Baseball Men, this time in Peoria, battling the Infamous Peoria Chiefs, managed by the Hall Of Fame Second Baseman for the Chicago Cubs in the '80's, Ryne Sandburg, whom the Snappers are looking to sweep a 4-game series...
I told Bobby that I would be outside in the back, in my Tan-Thru Speedos, and he wanted a picture, so, I took one, plus a couple of pics of my Lilies in back, that are just going ApeShit, and reproducing like crazy- and everything in back is going crazy, including the weeds, which makes it difficult to keep up, but, it gives me sumthin' to do, 'specially since Tiger is gone-
my yard work gives me so much peace of mind, i can actually not think of the bad state of affairs in my personal life, including, but not limited to, my truck, the fucking cunt from hell, my terrible lawyer, and my child leaving me for college- if i can figure out how i'm gonna pay for it- cunt took all my money, and she is planning on taking more
there's been a lot of negatives going on here that i haven't posted about- and i'm debating right now how much i want to open the flood gates, and let it all out- it was so much easier to deal with the really bad shit in my life when Bobby was home- we saw a lot of each other on his last, 'Home Stand'- we had a couple of Outstanding Sleepovers, Midweek- and then taking care of the Poor Guy, when he was sick
right now, i'm not in a very good place in my head- i hope the sun comes back out, or Tiger calls-
i really miss you, bobby
smudgie
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'My Tiger Guy Is Sick Tonight!...'
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Jun 17, 2008 6:57 pm
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Yeah, my Poor Guy!! He was fine last night- he brought sum' brats over that he had cooked in beer and onions for a very nice get-together last night... there's a very long and involved story about the onions, and the fact that I ended up with them- but, I'm at Bobby's house, and I'm trying to write this on a notebook comp, and I'm just not used to the keyboard- and I just don't have time for a very long, involved story, 'cuz Tiger is sick!!
Bobby called me this mid-afternoon (Bobby almost always calls me in the mid-afternoon- and I'm not sure if he knows this or not, but I always get so damn excited when I see that he's calling! I've had my phone ring before when I'm working, and I never answer- I always wait for the voice mail, and call back when I can- but when Bobby called today, I was all over that phone!!)
And Bobby was sick! He's been sick all day! Poor Guy called me around 11 today, and he had been sick all day- we talked later in the day, after I was done working, and I was wonderin' if he still wanted me to come over- Bobby said, 'Call me when you're home', so, I did- got home, checked out all my friends in the garden, and then called Bobby, to see how he was doin'- he was still hurtin', bad- I says, 'Bobby, you still wants me to come over?'
Bobby says, 'Yeah, I Miss You!'
Kids, I've never heard 4 more Beautiful Words in My Life- I'm at Bobby's right now, helpin' my Guy hopefully feel better- he was doin' somewhat better, but he's not right now- most likely a Stomach Flu- poor guy-
I shouldn't be writing a blog while my boyfriend is gettting ready to die... my bad...
But Bobby just started feelin' better, and, I guess, now it's OK-
Bobby said today that he missed me- that's really big, for me-
I love you, Bobby, I so hope you feel better tomorrow, buddy
smudgie luvs you so much
smudgie
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'I Got'sa New Baby!!!...'
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Jun 15, 2008 4:50 pm
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Yup, found him the other night- weeding out the bed of Lilies in the front, that are going to be so gorgeous, so soon- I have Oriental Lilies in the front, that smell so wonderful, and the Asiatic Lilies are in the back, that don't really smell that much, but they are so gorgeous- so, weeding out the Front Lily Bed, I found George...
The Teeniest, Tiniest, Little Baby Hosta that I've ever seen- I have plenty of Hostas, almost too many, and I've never really taken to them that much- 'cept this last year, when they were Ungodly Pretty- I luv's my flowers...
Well, I was on the job, weeding to beat all, and this little guy just struck a chord in my heart, so, he's staying... everyone else that wasn't a lily got the life pulled out of them, with no regrets, but, I kindof like George a lot- I'm really hoping he grows, he's in front of the bed, right in front of a tulip that is about to go to sleep for the summer- he's in a Very Perfect Spot, Indeed...
Anyway, I'm a dope- but my little baby Hosta is so damn cute!!
Seriously, friends, I am not loosing my mind- my Garden is My Friend, and My Flowers got me through a lot, before I became this well-adjusted person- that talks to flowers, and plants, and this year, herbs- I was messin' around with Michael the Basil, pullin' leaves off of him, and pulled off some Oregano (he doesn't have a name, yet- maybe y'all can help me with that- I got a Sage, 2 Thymes, a Rogue Basil, a Rosemary, and my Oregano, that all need names... hmmmm...- anyway, I chopped up some of Michael the Sweet Basil, and 'sum Oregano- and I can't explain how good it smells!
K, now I'm just being goofy-
I really just wanted to introduce everyone to George, the Baby Hosta- and, if'n I know my plants, he'll do just fine there- Hostas are hard for even me to kill
Take care, friends- Tiger, can't wait to see you, Fuckin' A, I miss you!!
I'm a jackass
smudge
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'Nuurrse- My Brain Hurts!!...'
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Jun 14, 2008 5:08 pm
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Editor's note- the title of this post is completely and unapologetically stolen from a 'Monty Python' skit... have a nice day...
Howdy, kids- there's been so much going on here that I've been wanting to post about, but, I just haven't had much time to post, not since My Baby Girl's Graduation- and at times, that's making my Brain Hurt, as well, dealing with My Little Girl that really has, 'all of a sudden', found her wings, and is flying around- she is almost Hardly Here at all, anymore- but, in reality, that's a good thing, I almost feel like I'm being 'weaned' of the Bottle of Her Companionship- tain't easy, but I'm managing- sort of...
What's made that Whole Deal much easier to cope with is the fact that Bobby and I have spent a lot (and I mean, 'A Lot!' ) of time together, and the time I get to spend with him, I cherish deeply
Editor's note; I am making the best effort I can to come to the point, and not be an emotional wreck- it may not seem that way, but I am trying!
So, dealing with the adult, dealing with the 'Empty Nest' thing, and just to make things better, I got a letter in the mail couple days ago, from some bankruptcy place- seems that the ex has filed for bankruptcy, and I got the letter, 'cuz at least someone recognizes that she owes me money- not gonna go into too much detail on that, I just wanted to get that off my chest for me, and me only- got the lawyer working on it, and I'm just hoping, just praying, that this deal actually works in my favor, and she'll have to pay what she owes... when the deal is more complete, when I have more info, you know I'll post it...
And then, we have this Whole Deal about all the rain and flooding going on in the Midwest, and I tell you what- It's Seriously Fucked Up Here... as it is in Iowa...
When I see disasters happen on the news, I feel bad for those people, I do- not as much as I should, but I do feel bad- when it starts to hit me personally, both in work and at home, that's when I 'kind-of' start to freak out- for example;
Yesterday at work- my route through Portage takes me North on Highway 51 to Portage, then over to a Very Major Interstate, I90/I94, back to Madison- except when I got to work Friday, Highway 51 was closed, as was Interstate 90/94...and I'm a total neurotic nut case...
I'm trying to keep this short- anyway, by the time I was ready to go, Highway 51 had opened, the Interstate was still closed (but by some miracle, I didn't have to find my way over there- ), and I headed Southbound on Highway 51 to my last town, DeForest, to finish up the day- only to see all of the traffic diverted from a 3-lane Interstate onto a single-lane Highway trying to go north...
I finally made my way onto the Interstate in Poynette, Exit 115, if you're keeping score at home
the interstate was closed both ways- i was only on it for 3 miles, before i had to exit- i was on a 3 lane interstate, both ways, and one car passed me- there was no one in the other direction- it so seriously creeped me out, I seriously felt that The Apocalypse is Near...
This Morning, I tried Going To the Bank, and doing a Very Ordinary Thing- cashing my check, and getting my money- 'cept that the Bank had no power, they've been operating on batteries since they opened at 9, and at 10 minutes before noon, when they closed for real, the batteries gave out, and I couldn't cash my check- I had no money
Disasters and stuff are bad- when they hit close to home, they're worse- the water on the river here is rising, half the stop lights in town have been turned off to save power- that's why the bank didn't have any power, the river is coming up close to the power plant
Bobby is in the middle of this crap, too- in Davenport, IA, with the Snappers- I traveled a lot a long time ago, with 'The Band'- 3 of my favorite places to go were Indianapolis, Knoxville, and Anywhere in Iowa... I seriously loved the people I met there, Very Good People, Indeed...
Yeah, My Fucking Brain Hurts!! Just too much feedback, in too short of a time, too many worries- and it's raining here again!
Gonna leave y'all with a short story- when I 'Rode The Bus' with Tiger, while we were shopping (I'm sure Tiger Dude was on the clock, and getting paid- Tiger, you got a nice gig- didn't say it was an easy gig, I know what you do ain't easy- but, it has it's perks! ) I found the Perfect Wastebasket for my Downstairs Potty- it fitted the color perfectly, and I was Very Happy, Indeed- then, the Adult said that she needed something to paint for one of her last school projects, something from the home, something we use everyday
I can't believe that I actually thought of this- see, in reality, I'm a dope- my brain doesn't work like it used to all the time- but this time it did
I gave her the new wastebasket- and now I have a Piece of Art from my Daughter, that will forever grace that bathroom- and if anyone uses it, I'll kill 'em...
So, the Adult's wastebasket is the picture, I love it so much- Bobby, be safe, I can't wait to see you again- My Friends, take care, Mr. Bill, Mr. Chuck, all of this water is headed your way, down the Mighty Mississippi-
miss you bobby
smudgie
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'A Recap of The Weekend That Was, And Boy, What a Weekend!'
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Jun 8, 2008 6:51 pm
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I guess a good place to start would be At the Beginning, and the Beginning of the weekend was Friday, June 6th, 2008, with Elizabeth's Graduation Party, that was held at her friend Em's house, Daughter of Marty and Diane (see, 'couple of months back, Elizabeth's Stupid Mother called me, and asked what I was doing for Elizabeth's Graduation- I told her that my Gift to her would be a brand-new Laptop Computer for College- she said that since I was giving her that, her gift would be to pay for the party, and that was that, and I didn't hear anything about the plans for the party for a very long time, and I started to get worried that Elizabeth wouldn't have a party at all, I would end up looking bad, 'cuz her stupid mother couldn't put a party together for her... then, 2 or 3 days before Graduation, Elizabeth tells me that she is having a 'Combined Party' with Em- Em's family thinks very highly of Elizabeth, and they've helped me out so much, when I was going through the most difficult time in my life 2 years ago- but that's another blog...)...
I'm gonna try to keep this short, but that might be nearly impossible for me... my bad...
So, anyway- my plan was to show up at the party 'fashionably late', but I found out that I was Elizabeth's ride to the party, so, I got myself ready to go around 6:30 (after working all day, and being exhausted), and we got there about 7- to find out that this party was Really more of a Family Reunion, with lots of old, creepy relatives there, who didn't smoke, and didn't drink beer- I thought I would last about 5 minutes, and have to leave... Luckily, I was able to occupy part of my time looking at their flowers (their flower garden is gorgeous, and Diane gave me a tour of the flowers, and whatnot- she had the most beautiful Poppies growing and blooming in front, beautiful Orange flowers with delicate Black centers, and they were to die for- I made her promise to give me some when she thins them out later in the year- she will, she is a very good person, someone I know I can trust... more on the trust issue later...)- they also had the most beautiful and delicate Irises I've ever seen, very thin, very dark blue, smaller flowers than the usual Iris, but they were so beautiful- Diane told me they were Asiatic, or 'sum such thing- man, I want 'sum of those, too- they are sooo beautiful...
So, I'm there, trying to figure out what I'm gonna do after I look at the flowers- the Adult is inside the House, with all the other New Adults, Eating Ice Cream, and doing Their Own Thing- and I have no one to talk to, no one that smokes (smoking has almost become somewhat of a crime- many times, I feel so much like a leper- 'Oh, that's Jim- he's kindof cool, he's gay, but he's really nice- but, OMG, he smokes!! Bad Person!' )- and then my phone rings, and it's Elizabeth's half-sister, Kristen, calling to find out if I'm at the party, and what's going on... in the car is Kristen and her husband, Bill, Elizabeth's mother, and Elizabeth's Mother's drunk friend, Angie- and I knew that this was exactly something that her stupid mother would do, bring a drunk to her daughter's big day...
Anyway, they pulled up in the car, I went to talk to them- everyone felt really uncomfortable 'cuz they didn't know anyone (and it's 2 completely different cultures- Elizabeth's family live in Jonesboro, Arkansas, and there's nothing wrong with living in Jonesboro, Arkansas- her mother also happens to be White Trash, and I can understand how White Trash would feel uncomfortable at a party with a lot of Normal People...).
'Cept for Kristen, Elizabeth's sister- see, this is where the night got really special, for me, the Adult, and I hope Kristen as well- she said to her mother, 'I'm going to this party, it's for my baby sister, and ya'll can leave if you want to...'
So they did- Elizabeth's dirt bag mother, that was supposed to help throw a graduation party for her daughter, showed up with a drunken friend, said 'hi' to Elizabeth, and drove off, leaving Kristen and her husband, Bill- who was also uncomfortable being there (Bill is African-American- first thing he said to me was, 'there aren't any other Black Folk here', and I said, 'so, fuck'em, get out of the car and have a good time'- and he did... and nobody cared- imagine that...)
So, anyway, now Smudgie is comfortable- I gots people I know, I gots people I can talk to, I gots people that I can have a smoke with- I haven't talked like this to Kristen in years (from about October 1984, when I met her mother, until October 1992, Kristen and her sister, Stephanie- who didn't make the trip- were my daughters- I married Elizabeth's mother July 4th, 1986, and those two were my only daughters until Elizabeth was born April 15th, 1990- and after Elizabeth was born, I appreciated those girls more and more, and I loved them very much- then her mother decided to take them away, 6 months after we bought our first house, so she could be with 'sum dude that could feed her cocaine, and beat her in front of her kids... 'nuf said...)
It was a great evening, beautiful weather, the Other Adults that Elizabeth graduated with, many that I knew, started showing up, and it was very nice, indeed- got 'sum great pictures- actually, Kristen got the best one of the night- one of the most perfect pictures in my life, me and the Adult together,I'm looking very happy, and My Adult looking so gloriously happy, and eating Ice Cream- I wish I could post it here, I'm so Fucking Proud of That Girl
About 8:30, Kristen and Bill mentioned that they 'wouldn't mind going'- I was getting about to the point where I wanted to leave as well- I asked them if they wanted to come over and sit on the deck a bit, have a couple beers, and they both liked that idea- we sat on the deck, we smoked our 'contraband cigarettes', and we had a couple of beers- only a couple- Kristen and I got to talk together a lot, and it got intense, very intense, in a very good way- somehow, Kristen is very much like me- very emotional- and very open- I hope...
See, after what I've been through with women, and people in general, it's very difficult for me to totally trust someone- which is odd, my nature is to trust everyone automatically- but, that's 'cuz I was raised by Democrats...
Basically, after talking with her for a long time, and being very impressed with the person she turned out to be, I asked her if she wanted me to be her dad again (she never had a Dad in her life, other than me- her dad left when she was 2 or so- I was her dad for a very long time in her life...)- it was very emotional, it was also very nice, and I really, really hope that I can keep this connection with her and her family
Oh, we ended up talking about Bobby, too- God, this is a long story- see, her mother called me Wednesday night, Bobby and I are watching TV, she said to me, 'Don't you want to talk to me?', and I said, 'No, I'm sitting here on the couch with my boyfriend'- Kristen told me that threw her mother for quite the loop- which is cool- so Kristen already knew that I had a boyfriend- and they both really didn't care, and unless I'm totally stupid (which I can be) at reading people, Kristen was very happy for me, 'cuz I was finally happy... talked for about a half hour about Bobby, showed her a couple pictures of that Handsome Man... it was very nice...
It was an Extraordinary Evening, and at the end of it, I hoped that I had one of My Daughters back- possibly I do- I'm gonna call her tomorrow (tonight they're traveling, but I'm gonna call tomorrow, say, 'hey', and say, 'ya know, the shit we talked about, I'm serious about it- I want to stay connected' )- Actually, the story gets better, 'cuz at the end of the night, Bobby was back at his hotel in Beloit, WI (the Econolodge Resort- Very Nice Place, 5 Stars all the way!), and I drove down around Midnight that night, and spent a Fantastic Night with Him- just being together, smooching, no sex- that was for the next day, Bobby was one Tired Tiger!
And so was I- we ended up going to sleep around 2 or 3- I had been up for almost a day straight, and that's hard to do, when you're 45... we had a great night, a great Next Day, and we'll have another Great Day very soon...
There's so much other shit that happened this weekend that I wanted to write about, but this is too long, and I'll post it in a day or so- a post about people I thought were my friends, and now I find out that they're talking about me, behind my back, 'cuz I'm queer- 'sumthin' that really disturbs me, but right now I want to focus on the good feelin's I have- Hopefully, Possibly- One of My Other Daughter's may have found me Friday night
I can't post the picture that Kristen took of me and Elizabeth, so's I took a picture of My Peonies, with a Very Prety Iris about to blossom- it never fails- it's been so dry here, whenever the Peonies blossom, it rains like a son'of'a'bitch- and Heavy Rain is Death to Peonies...
Ya'll take care, Smudgie is a dope- miss you, Bobby- Kristen, you turned out to be a very nice girl, very nice getting to know you again- missed you
Smudgie
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